Christmas is upon us, and so is our departure. How can I express the joy of one, and the dread for the other? The last weeks since Thanksgiving, I have been feeling out of the holiday spirit. There was no crazy Black Friday experience here in Italy. Not too many holiday commercials on the tv, displaying consumerism to its fullest. No one even had Christmas lights out until this week. Well, this week the real Christmas feelings started to arrive, and I feel ready for Christmas now. This week I found Francesco had a fake tree in his basement, so Ava and I acted as Santas Elves and set up his tree while he was at work one evening. What a fun surprise! We also set up his "presepio" that night (not sure of that spelling, but it is a nativity) complete with "carte stelle" (shiny blue paper with silver stars as a background), and a big glittery gold star pointing to the baby Jesus. He even added moss around their feet and made sure the Magi were not too close to arriving to the baby Jesus. Apparently the Magi arrive on January 6th and this is another day that Italians have a national holiday and give presents to children! It is fun seeing and hearing how they celebrate Christmas a little differently than we do. More people are putting up Christmas lights now, and driving around the city at night is absolutely beautiful, particularly in the old center where strings of lights hang between many buildings, covering the streets with canopies of light. With the Christmas feelings more subdued around here, I really get the impression that the focus of the holiday is a little less "uncluttered" and it doesnt give the impression of excess like I have often felt in the States. But who knows...it is just my outsider impression so far!
So onto the not-so-happy evaluation of this time period: I can not believe it is already our last week here in Firenze. The three months leading up to our arrival in September seemed to drag on, day after day, making weeks feel like years. And now that we have been here almost 3 months now, I can not think of where the time went! To be perfectly honest, I am rather upset that the time has seemed to fly by so quickly. Why are there moments in our lives that we want to pass so quickly, and the days drag on just to spite us? This is how I felt when I was pregnant with Ava. Each day, each month, never seemed to end. I just wanted to hold her in my arms (and allow my body to feel normal again!) and see my little girls face for the first time. But noooo...the 9 months were an eternity for me. And boom, three years later here we are in a foreign country. I wanted nothing more than for these three months to go slowly. I hoped the time would feel like those pregnant months where I could count the hours until the end of the day....yet be completely happy that time had slowed, instead of feeling anxious and frustrated that Father time decided to slow his clock for us.
Well, I have to admit I am proud of being able to do practically nothing for three months, and yet feel so contented and happy with how we spent our time. We allowed our days to be leisurely...we had many, many evenings with friends and food....and if we did not get to do something one day, we always had the next day or the day after to do it (weather permitting, of course!). These last three months I have slept more, and more peacefully, than I have in the last 3 year. I have read a total of 5 classic books here. I have sat for multiple hours, on multiple days, playing with my little girl without feeling like I had something else I just HAD to do instead! After 3 long years I was able to sit down and finally finish sewing Ava's needlepoint stocking so she can use it this Christmas!!! Heck, I was even able to hold some small conversations with Italians since I have learned to understand so many more nuances of the Italian language simply by watching TV in English with Italian subtitles!
Some could say we came here to waste time, have fun, and have a vacation. That's true. But we also did so much that enriched our lives, and made the bond between me and Ava grow in a different way. Some days all we had was eachother as companions. Other days we were surrounded by people who came to love us, and we learned how to love them. We both had days that we cried because we couldn't speak Italian. We both had days where we just wanted a good dose of American food, so we went to McDonalds! We both loved to look at the beauty in this country and practically every day Ava would point out some lovely hillside or a funny dog, or a great gelateria! We have kept our eyes open these three months as well as our hearts. Firenze entered into both, and will stay with us forever through photos and friendships! Now, we come back to the beginning...figuring how to pack 3 months worth of things back into our suitcases...but we'll get to that tomorrow...weather permitting, of course.

























